what i see, no one else does. what i feel, no one else can. as life progresses, we look at what we have become and where we want to be but we cannot seem to live for what is here and now. we are so busy talking about mistakes we’ve made in the past, so that we do not repeat these events again for our future, that we simply forget what is good in the now.
i see so much difference in what i used to believe and how it is has affected me, that it makes me question every minute of my life. experiences are something you live to get a better perspective of what is to come. however, if you think to far ahead, you can destroy what is real. i guess one can never anticipate what will happen next; all we know is that we are here and doing the best that we can with what we have and the life that has been handed to us.
my thoughts lately are very scattered; since i took my big trip, i have realized that my perspectives are very different. there are things i want now that never seemed possible. i totally feel as though i want to explore more and live the life that should have been granted to me. i guess my biggest fear is that if i see it to big, i may disappoint myself as the end of the road because i didn’t see the reality well enough. this goes for all aspects of my life; love, friendships and people.
so my thoughts for today: is the dream bigger than we ourselves can understand and see or are we just in the right place in the right time?
as you can tell i believe i’ve landed on simple. it’s funny how we believe that by adding all kinds of different items, social networks, affiliates, it makes are website better but in actuality, it crowds it.
so here i am, seeking an epic tranquility and thinking, less is more. an old saying but so effective. it’s like when you “un-clutter” your home or a space you have neglected for so long, when you take a step back and look at it, the space is clear. the epic truth is if only we could do this with our minds. how wonderful we could feel, to just empty the unnecessary. the boxes keep filling and soon you find out there is no room for the reality.
to be healthy, mind and body we must clear the way for better and deserving lessons. i can say, without a doubt i know my life would a whole lot better. how about you?
ever get the feeling, sometimes you just can’t get things right?
me. all the time.
crushing some ideas in my head for this epic blog and for some reason can’t find the right style and layout. i guess even when clearing one’s mind, nothing comes forward. it is like writer’s block only, to appeal to the readers, you try to find a way to make it look presentable and readable, however nothing comes.
so for today, i am just going to keep plugging at it and see if anything sparks me.
thanks for being here and giving me encourgement.
layouts suck sometimes and i am just putting it out there. the reason i change the design is because of this….
this morning, i am faced with this challenge again.
it’s like life, when you want it to work it doesn’t because there are other variables.
on to search mode for an epic theme,.
as we are nearing the end of 2016, i find myself looking at life in great depth. changes, ideas, people, life and love have all been turned around and i see how busy i have become.
our bodies tell us when you need a break and epic is doing just that in December. i am taking a vacation and i can’t wait! i love flying, even if i live in a country where snow has just falling this morning, a big blanket of white stuff smothers our land. as my dad said to me once:
“it doesn’t snow over the clouds”
so true, but you have to get off the ground first, right?
i have become a great flyer, prepared for anything and everything but what i look forward too most if laying on a beach, looking at the palm trees and spending a big of quality time with my dad. he lives in Texas all winter and has been doing that for years. he really enjoys it! i remember 3 years ago, visiting there and i thought it was time i went back.
it will give me some time to really take the much needed time to relax and concentrate on the coming year, looking at goals and becoming more epic than ever! maybe work on my book too.
i have noticed and determined, people do not take responsibility for their own actions. they say or do things and really never live up to it. as i sit here this morning, i see things in a different light and it has to be said, most people are creatures of disguise.
how can we live in a world so full of chaos and never truly own up to the moment?
in our minds, we feel we are doing the right thing when in fact it is just an action of reaction to what people around us see and feel. we are so conditioned to believe the ‘norm’ = normal, that we never feel our own perception of life. reality, if you let it in, will certainly show the truth and then you make the conscious decision to live it for what it is.
my concept of consideration deals with people who pretend to be something they are not, say things that allow them to control the very essence of their here and the now. delusion sets in and you have to ask yourself whether this is real and if not why the hell are they acting in this way?
for their own personal gain.
maybe not. they may not see the reality in which others live in and no concept of understanding. as this sounds critical it is also truth. i love Alan Watts – great philosopher and i am hooked on his videos. one line that stands out in my mind is this:
“we don’t like the sound of our voice”
i think of being alone in the moment and it makes me feel as though this is so incredible because it makes so much sense. those who constantly making themselves available for others are scared of their own voice. they can’t be by themselves because they don’t like themselves, they do not understand themselves or fear something quite deep.
the question is do we really love ourselves enough to stand up to these people in order to feel something we do not feel?