middle of the week and we, some of us have been productive and in our own way and I wonder who is actually happy with their life? when we stop for a moment, what do you think about? do you ponder about life in general or what hits your mind the most? and if it is disturbing, what do you plan on doing about it?
when life hits rock bottom, in some cases, the rabbit hole is so deep, we no longer find the strength to climb our way out. there is no light above, there is no ladder to climb and we don’t see the hand reaching out to help.
I have seen this so many times and I keep asking the obvious question:
“why is this happening again?”
I allowed myself to change my whole life in order to make things better, or so I thought and here I am back in that rabbit hole of self pity and sorrow; feeling so unimportant, feeling as though my life really has no purpose, other than feeding others and making sure they are fulfilled. it seems to me that bad follows all the good and I can’t help but wonder what the hell is following my spirit that I can’t seem to get where I want to be.
all I know is today, I have a phone interview, dreading this to the core because we all have to be so nice and inspiring when speaking to people about a new job and on the other hand I want to be free to say how I feel. I just want to work and be happy to go to work every day, like my job and aspire to do good.