.time can make you stand still

emotional roller coasters, how dangerous they are and how effective they can be on our lives. i have mentioned, from time to time, how i dream and how real my dreams are. last night was an immense force of past issues. i say that because i know in my mind, it stems from editing my book yesterday, bringing up old past mistakes and regrets.

Image result for colorful wallpaperi really do think if i could erase about 10 years of my life, i would be smarter. unfortunately, if you think about it, erasing parts of your life would only alter the future, the now, the present time would not be the same as it is.

why is it so easy to dismiss parts of your life and others haunt you? there is no lesson to be learned, you have let go of that life you once had and yet the memories are as real as if i was standing there again. knowing i can’t change it leads me to believe it is my own weakness, the regret is stronger and it is altering my way of thinking.

what i need to do is regroup, regenerate and rethink!

how to survive the unexpected

well i made it to my destination! i feel as though i have been away from my laptop for days but with being busy and soaking up the sun, i finally settled in my own place and as usual things weren’t as they seemed.

i always know that life can throw you and we, as i have said many times, never goes the way it should. but i am smart girl and that is my challenge today, realizing that although i can run into so much bullshit, expect the unexpected and surviving it is something we should take pride in.

this morning, the one thing i enjoy or am routine to do still with my coffee, in the breeze and write. well. my condo’s coffee maker is broken. so i improvised. i have fresh water, a filter, coffee and a microwave. yes it isn’t Tim Horton’s but at least it’s coffee. and i know there is a Starbucks around the corner. the ultimate strongest coffee anyone can ever drink!


the other thing was around 3am i was awoken by 2 young girls staying here, one obviously upset over something, in tears and the other bitching her out. as i decided to join them on the wonderful terrace view i have, pause for sarcasm as i am over looking a construction site not the ocean, one of them just acknowledged me saying ‘hi’ and went on with their mexican conversation at great speed. last year i was in the most busiest place with party goers all night until 5am and now this!

as i watched this poor girl cry, her friend bitching her out, i went back to bed with a grin on my face.


because i realized that no matter what country you are in obviously people are all the same, they go through life, experiencing the same things, love, hurt, friendships and pain. my only thought was i wish i knew what her problem was as i probably would have sat there and listened to her. maybe i could have given her insight or something.

so today, day 2 of my epic vacation, no plans laid yet and that my readers is what this is all about. the sun, the relaxation and good company of family.