there are many ways to live your life and most of mine has been somewhat real and otherwise the pretend game.
recent events have lead me to unfold more truths about myself and i feel as though i have had a break through with my reality. saying it out loud seems like the bigger thing but sitting here writing it is much more appealing as i love to go back and read what i wrote many moons from now. it is how i cope with things and free myself of unnecessary bullshit.
since last Thursday, i have been in deep thought about a certain part of my life that is literally sucking the happiness out of me and for what? for one minute if i could deeply believe that i am the person people say i am i think i would be put in a high rise, fancy office and literally feeling as though people didn’t matter. but they do – it really doesn’t matter what type of people we come across, they all play a big part in our lives.
what i have come to see is that some were put on this earth to make us feel little, less worthy of our natural ability to learn and succeed.
thinking outside the box here…
for the past 7 months, i have been in a leadership role, one that is important to others and their lives. struggling in the beginning, fixing things that needed to be fixed and putting every in order was to say the least difficult but successful i believe. listening to others comment on my progress and acknowledging my efforts was taken at great value. although this position is one that is a constant learning experience, it is also a position in which you must become someone else in order to keep professionalism. personally, i am respectful in most situations, i never judge others and try to keep an open mind about everything. that is part of my self training on unconditional love. however, there are times when a line must be crossed and the reality is that i am being someone else that makes me feel uncomfortable.
it only took one moment in time and two people to do it: destruction of my self respect, honesty, work and value of life.
so for days now i have been wondering where it is going to lead me and a part of me says let it go and the other stubborn part says fight for what is right. we cannot let people walk all over us in order to satisfy their ability to perceive what is good or not. people like this must be stopped in their tracks and made to realise their position and how their determination to hurt others will not be accepted.
we cannot be happy if we deny ourselves of true identity. if we become someone else to fulfil someone else’s agenda then we are not being true to ourselves. be who you are, live the life you want and speak out to those who need a reality check.