someone has to say it.
we are all judged and the one’s who tell you otherwise, that we only see what’s on the inside, they are full of shit. people see a visual, they see first what is on the outside and even when they get to know you, they make up their own idea of what and who you are.
it does not matter what your life is about, the eyes are focused on what they see. i know this to be true because it happens every day.
i feel it, i get judged all the time, what i say, what i do, how i act and even my beliefs get shot down in every which way possible. i had a lot of time to think over the weekend and my body was telling me it is time to decide what is important and what is not. the stress of it all is that when you set out a goal and people shoot you down, you are supposed to be stronger and shrug it off. but in this case, it’s a matter of principle.
i literally yelled out yesterday at my better half:
“i hate my life” I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT IT
imagine saying that out loud, people would think you are crazy but when shit hits the fan, you either have to fix it or change your tactics. i have been down this road before far to many times.
i have worked very hard to get where i am and the question still remains, ‘why is it still not enough’
because there is still a part of me that is missing.