i refuse to change

being aware of ones’ own wellness can take a lot of work. the problem lies when you realize you are gifted with certain conditions that you refuse to change.

my gift is people | i can read people | i know when a person is a certain way or when and where or how they lives are played out. i can even tell when certain people are making wrong choices and can’t admit it to themselves. it is only later when they discover these things, they will come back to me and say i was right.

pretty epic to be like that but what happens when it is your own self that is crazy enough to see these things? they’re things we do not want to admit to ourselves and sometimes search for reasons to justify a behavior which totally never needs justifying. it is about acceptance within and of those whom you cannot deal with. even when it is people close to you, sometimes you have to say out loud the things you shouldn’t say in order to give yourself peace knowing that you will hurt someone else.

choices play a big part in this because when you are faced with a situation that is very upsetting you must make a choice to work it out or set it free for the sake of keeping this peace. i have people in my life i dislike very much and i believe it is my choice whether to be around them or not. under no circumstance should i have to as they say ‘suck it up’ and live with it if it makes me uncomfortable in my own wellness. others should respect this and understand.

in the end, the only reality i need is myself, my work, my children, the love of my life and our future. i do not need to incorporate anyone else in my life or environment if it isn’t comfortable. making this choice many times before has really upset me because it has affected many people but i have come to realize in order for me to be happy, i need the simpler things. no chaos, take each day as it comes and remembers to breathe and reboot!